Sliding through my dreams maybe your thoughts will never perish but it is very true that I have chosen a different road for myself. Thinking about those beautiful memories, I still cannot help myself from stopping the sarcastic smile, which appears on my face. Maybe it wont work I think, I needed break. My life gave me sorrows every time and I do not think I have witnessed anything rather than a moist season in my life. Making my life was no less than making me witness my powerlessness and make me shed tears of blood. Helplessness grabbed me all over again, a moment without you was very harsh and impatient, I felt like what was living worth when my wounds were never healed and slaved for. You left me alone, when I needed you the most. I was never able to understand the plot of life when even my own people appeared like strangers...
Maybe I made some mistakes unwittingly but I did not deserve to be stoned for every moment of my life, and I thank you for those moments when I was hardly able to see beyond the fog of sadness... Humid and moist nature of my life when I was craving for you was maybe perhaps the most unwanted part of my life...Dilemma of life was much harder, never did my life make friendship with me and whenever did I meet you I just felt that at every point of life I was given a gift of sorrows and tears... I cannot remember when the last time I laughed and still you want me to be with you... How can life be so rude to me, life was changing its pace for every moment and people said that life was full of happiness but why was I to witness sorrow every time. Tomorrow always meant a new upbringing of sorrow to me...Resting my head on your shoulder and holding you and crying out my pain relaxed me but since you left me alone I just broke apart like a falling glass breaking apart into several pieces... Meeting you was like meeting perfect smile for just a few seconds of life, you meant everything to me. Spring season of my life suddenly changed its way back to scary monsoon making me cry for loving you every moment...
Sorry but it has taken years of my life to make myself understand life and I don’t want to go on ahead but I just want to break apart and live my life, because for every bloody tear which you have made me cry I have wasted my whole life for it...
Relationships sometimes are better kept like broken glasses rather than picking the pieces of glasses to join them, because this hurts oneself... Plot of life is better played as it is...rather than changing its direction because change of directions in wind like relationships may up bring storms...
Nuclear War... has this been quite often heard huh...? Well then to tell you all the nuclear war which may happen in future will bring about such a large scale destruction that maybe we all will again return to the EARLY man stage...Scientists of Australia and Japan predict that the large scale massacre which will be created due to nuclear war may leave Earth into permanent ice age. The remains of the nuclear war will lead to covering of the Earth's stratosphere which will block the sun rays and thus slowly but definitely all the sources will diminish leading this very forward man to the age old Early man stage. We all have witnessed the temporary but quite shocking ice age in Europe quite a few days before well then just imagine what would be the state when the permanent factor will dominate the temporary one. To tell you all you would be wondering the safe and sound nature of water bodies that time as a source for food but even that life saving medium will be a poisoned one ...? Then where are you going ...?? Decide for yourselves..... STOP this differences amongst ourselves for a peaceful and a healthy future ahead.... I remeber a few lines of Swami Chidanand at this point.... Work for the universal brotherhood and world peace.Work as though this task depends on you...Be an instrument of world harmony and peace...
I still wonder why people prefer suicide! A friend of mine quit his life just because his girlfriend had walked out.... I dont understand why dont such people understand the feelings of their parents before attempting such things..... I just want to share a few lines with them..... Everyone has to bend before the might of time, it never waits for anyone.When the bright sun sets over the earth it gives rise to a night of darkness and the cycle has to repeat again.Even if any boat sunks in the sea, there is no bank for support.Similarly if we compare ourselves with that boat, theres noone who would get deeply affected by our deaths. From the bunches of so many flowers even if one flower seems to die theres noone who would pay heed to that rather one would remove it from the bunch so that others dont get affected.
Next time you visit a retail shop or any mall nearby DO NOT forget to buy DEO.
Just wondered about people coming to your room to find out how stinky it is.....
Well I'll share the horrible of my experiences when my roommate used to stink as bad as a manhole with all the litter inside or the horrible drainage pipe. " Hey, Erii (thats my nickname) why is your room so stinky...?? " Rithsou one of my frens asked me. Well I had to reply that the pig with whom i was staying had not bathed since last four days moreover not even washed her dumped clothes and neither did she used DEO. lol
So, Dont forget this good piece of advice, Bathe daily, use a room freshner and use a deo on yourself and do spray it on your roommate if he/she is a pig.
I still recall that incident from my college life when we had put up some rare artwork’s prints on the campus. “Hey mom I can really see her smile, can you?” a child responded to her perplexed mom. “Well, but then why can’t I?” Her mom seemed quite perplexed looking at the most beautiful and the most magnificent masterpiece until date. Well some people really see her smile while others cannot but I compared this situation with my life that time. Confused state of life was very much resembling to the confusing masterpiece of Leonardo da Vinci. I did not know where I was going aimlessly and what I was doing. It seemed quite natural that this Mona Lisa smile was miles apart from the real state of my own world.
As Angela Monet has said, “Those who danced were thought to be quite insane by those who did not hear the music.” Well I was dealing with something horrible. My mom always used to tell me that you have to deal with people of different attitudes and learn to adjust with them. However, was it my fault that I tried to but I could not? These were the typical thoughts, which came to my mind while I was dealing with my roommate in hostel. Her main aim was torturing me to the very best level. Talking loudly when I was trying to sleep, calling up friends while I was studying, etc. The limit crossed that day when she started blabbering that I was making her feel inferior in terms of money and that I should control myself. Moreover, when I was not feeling well she was busy talking with friends in room. Shouldn’t I react to all these things or just keep struggling with myself facing all the injustice?
The very unsaid and non-visualized Mona Lisa smile comes to my mind thinking of that time, maybe the most painful one I had gone through. People predict so much about that enigmatic masterpiece but no one can definitely say anything or give an explanation about the creator’s state of mind and what had he kept in mind while painting such a masterpiece. If you really concentrate upon the masterpiece, you will see the woman smile but gradually the light mood of the painting seems to be turning to a serious one and you start wondering whether you really saw her smile or not. It was my condition though I seemed pretty well from the outer part as me but I was completely empty inside.
Frustrated with those living conditions I desperately needed some change, a change that would let me live in peace away from the chaos of that room.
Finally, I decided to drop one year of my college life for a change and I finally realized that I was completely correct on part and that doing some other course would bring me happiness as well. It is a part of life, dropping one year is not a big deal but to live life in an appropriate way must be our aim. We should always achieve excellence first and not the success. Today when I see the same masterpiece, I just focus on the positive nature of the work i.e. the light mood smile, which I see for a longer time than the previous condition. Therefore, I suggest all of you that if in any case you feel your life being pictured in Mona Lisa way, stop, think not for the success but for your own peace, maybe even you will find your way out of that.
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